I very recently made a huge change in my life – I quit my job and moved. I’ve been wanting to leave Florida for quite awhile, I don’t know that I can explain the feeling of “I really don’t want to be here” that I was feeling. It had nothing to do with the people in my life or even some of my favorite haunts (like Revolution Ice Cream that is a MUST try for anyone going anywhere near Tampa). in fact, I’d be thrilled if I could bring those haunts/people with me. But it was just this feeling, this desire to be anywhere but that state. It probably had a lot to do with roasting my butt off the minute I wake up in the morning. I didn’t even have a specific place that I wanted to go to, well, actually, I did. I would have loved to found a job in Colorado. But that didn’t happen.
This past spring J and I were discussing our jobs and he actually was ok with the idea of me looking for a new job in another state. I was so happy that I started looking right away. We actually almost ended up in Delaware, but that didn’t happen. Instead I somehow ended up back in Minnesota; and just in time to go from roasting my butt off to freezing it off. My last day at GAC (gigantic ass company) was two weeks ago, I took a week off to rest a little and pack what I could and last Thursday I left Florida and headed to Minnesota. When I left Florida it was 71 at 7:30 in the morning. When I got to Minnesota it was high 40’s and in fact on Monday, my first day at my new job, there were flurries.
J will be joining me as soon as possible; first we need to find a house and he’s currently looking for a job (anyone got one for him?). In the meantime I’m crashing in the basement of a friend wonderful enough to let me. My drive was pretty interesting; I’ve never driven through Tennessee during the day before and I was thoroughly enchanted by the beauty of the state. While my timing sucked regarding the temperature differences, it definitely did not suck when it came to the fall foliage. It was stunning! The hills and mountains of Tennessee are just starting to change so there were gorgeous pops of red and orange among the greens. And the drive through Wisconsin was even more beautiful. As I drove along I had to constantly remind myself to keep my eyes on the road and drive the speed limit instead of letting it drop. I’m looking forward to next year when J will finally be up here and we can take some trips to see the fall colors together.
The last few weeks have been a whirlwind of activity and emotion. I left a job I’d been at for almost 7 years to go to a job that I honestly wonder sometimes if I’ll be able to do it. I know that right now those feelings are stemming from the fact I haven’t really gotten into what I’ll be doing and seen the systems or the process. I keep reminding myself that I felt this way when I first started at GAC and had no idea what anti-money laundering even was. I’m sure in a few weeks I’ll look back at this and scoff at myself. But at the moment, I’m definitely wondering why I left something I know so well for something that I feel lost in. And missing J and our mini zoo and everything and everyone else in Florida like crazy.
On the other end of the spectrum though is the contentment I feel being back here. Even though most of the time I’m busy shivering and trying to stay warm while waiting for the train, there are still times I step outside and enjoy the chill in the air, that scent that makes one know snow is right around the corner. I’m re-discovering the state I grew up in; and in some cases completely discovering something new. Earlier tonight I took a road I’ve never been on before and was surprised to see so many historic markers. I was actually feeling like playing tourist and checking them out; something I’m sure I’ll do in the near future.
On my drive up I crashed with my friend Jimmie who is a beautiful hostess. We had dinner at Cock of the Walk, given the name, we had to! And then after we played tourist and she took me to the Grand Ole Opry hotel. The hotel is a part of the same family as the Gaylord Palms in Orlando which I’ve been to several times, so it was interesting to see the differences between the two.
My feet are now set upon this new path and I can’t wait for J and our zoo to join me. I’m looking forward to re-discovering so much with him by my side.